BTS‘ V celebrated the discharge of his debut solo album, Layover — which arrived Sept. 8 — with a Monday (Sept. 11) look on Suga‘s Suchwita ingesting present. Whereas the pair listened to a number of tracks from the album, the dialog turned critical when V mirrored on a tough time within the group that came about throughout 2018.
“Once I consider Taehyung, the 12 months 2018 involves thoughts a lot, throughout our ‘Faux love’ promotions,” Suga mentioned, to which V replied, “It was the hardest time in my life.”
A clip from BTS’ award acceptance on the 2018 MAMA Awards speech performed in an apart, which noticed V telling the viewers, “Even when I die and are available again alive, what doesn’t change is that ARMY is such a treasured present to me.”
Suga defined that after the members noticed how exhausted V was, it led the group to surprise about how drained in addition they have been. V’s supply of stress, nonetheless, got here from feeling insecure about his efficiency talents in comparison with his group members’.
“I began to match myself to others. ‘As a result of my tempo is slower than the members and my ideas are a bit completely different … is that why I’m extra burned out?’ I assumed this quite a bit,” V defined. “Each time I checked out our members once we carry out, [I thought,] ‘The members are so good and so they benefit from the stage. However why am I the one one like this?’ So comparatively, my burnout was extreme.”
Regardless of gaining worldwide consideration and getting invited to carry out on the Billboard Music Awards and the American Music Awards for the primary time in 2018, the accolades weren’t sufficient for the group to be ok with their lack of relaxation, and in accordance with V, his exhaustion got here to a head as BTS ready for the discharge of “Faux Love.”
“I used to be so exhausted that I requested, ‘Since tomorrow we solely have dance apply, wouldn’t it be OK if we took a day without work?’ However we have been getting ready for our comeback and it was an vital dance apply, so we couldn’t relaxation. … All this negativity piled up inside me,” he recalled. “I didn’t assume I might do something in that state, so I stored considering of how I might relaxation, however I couldn’t consider something, so I even thought I ought to get harm [‘If I get hurt, would I be able to rest?’]. I assumed I ought to get harm, however now I wish to change that me of the previous.”
Although Suga famous that 2018 felt like a “life and loss of life state of affairs” for BTS, ARMY can relaxation simple figuring out these days are behind the group. “They’re gone now!” V assured Suga.
Watch V’s episode of Suchwita above.
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