Jimmie Allen revealed he contemplated suicide following the sexual abuse allegations in opposition to him final 12 months as a method to financially present for his household.
In Could 2023, the nation music artist’s former supervisor, recognized solely as Jane Doe, alleged he raped and sexually abused her a number of occasions. In a press release launched on the time, Allen claimed the 2 had a consensual sexual relationship that lasted for 2 years.
“It’s deeply troubling and hurtful that somebody I counted as certainly one of my closest buddies, colleagues and confidants would make allegations that don’t have any reality to them in any respect. I acknowledge that we had a sexual relationship,” his assertion learn. “Throughout that point, she by no means as soon as accused me of any wrongdoing, and she or he spoke of our relationship and friendship as being one thing she needed to proceed indefinitely. Solely after issues ended between us, did she rent a lawyer to achieve out and ask for cash, which leads me to query her motives.”
His assertion continued, noting that her allegations had been false and damaging as he had labored arduous to construct up his profession and deliberate to “mount a vigorous protection” in opposition to her claims to “shield my repute.” Jane Doe has since dropped the lawsuit in opposition to him.
Allen sat down with Kathie Lee Gifford for an hour-long chat posted to his YouTube channel, the place they mentioned the allegations and what the artist was going by on the time. He instructed Gifford that he was “looking for prompt gratification from girls” in the course of the affair together with his former supervisor.
He defined that they had been collectively on a regular basis. They seemingly entered into an on-again, off-again state of affairs the place they’d hook up, cease hooking up after which begin once more when “she’d get all unhappy and upset.” The musician added that he knew he didn’t desire a relationship along with her however ought to’ve identified that she had emotions for him.
Allen’s household has at all times been a very powerful factor to him. He has six kids: three from his earlier marriage to Alexis Gate (the pair separated a month earlier than the allegations grew to become public), one from a earlier relationship and two twins who’re lower than a 12 months outdated. Following the allegations, he was suspended from his label, reserving company and supervisor, and was nervous about how he would have the ability to proceed supporting his children if he couldn’t work.
“I used to be sitting there, and I actually felt like the entire world had simply collapsed,” he stated within the dialog with Gifford. “‘Trigger the very first thing my mind goes to isn’t the profession, it’s ‘How am I going to supply for my children?’”
He continued, “It hit me. My life insurance coverage covers suicide. I don’t really feel that method now, however in that second, whenever you really feel like you don’t have anything within the midst of a society the place it’s not harmless till confirmed responsible… [people think] she stated this so it have to be true.”
Allen revealed a textual content from his good friend telling him that learn, “Ending it isn’t the reply,” got here in on the proper time and saved his life. The “Make Me Need To” singer defined he went to a retreat for psychological well being and commenced going to remedy, however nonetheless struggled with ideas of suicide. He had assist from one other good friend, who gave him some cash, which allowed him to really feel like he might present for his household in different methods.
“After a number of months, I began to take a look at the state of affairs totally different. It went from, ‘God, why is that this taking place to me?’ to ‘God, what am I speculated to be taught?’” he stated. “I went from hating her to a bit bit sort of feeling unhealthy for her, attempting to grasp what was happening in her life that she wanted to do that. How did I not make myself accessible for a dialog about her emotions?”
In case you or somebody you already know wants assist, name the Nationwide Suicide Prevention hotline at 988.
